Boundaries and Beginnings

Last night I went to bed with a shitty headache, and had just spent 6 hours, almost, looking at cars in pretty specific detail. I'm actually starting to really like it, it's interesting when I get interested in it. I really start to CARE, once I truly understand. Malcolm and I sat for hours, and went through such highs and lows. Once it started getting "emotional", I was in. Totally awesome. I just want to learn, and I think I will. I like it SO much now.

At 9:30 a.m., my Dad walks in, and says "Shira, you should get up and start work and you smoke too much grass and clean the shit in the bathroom". I yelled that I was in pain (still!) and I'd get up when it was gone (Ugh, took FOREVER). At 1:30 I woke up, and was STILL in pain, but I had to get up by then. So I did. And then I called my Dad and asked when he would be home because we had to talk.

So my Dad and I talked. I told him I was angered and hurt, blah, and proceeded to tell me whatever. I explained to him my depression, my work ethic, and that I am NOT a stoner, by a long shot.

Ha, in the same day, I write this high. Technically, it's "yesterday", but whatever.

The day before, I said I'd make dinner for what was "supposed" to be 7 people. It ended up being just 3, and I cooked a bunch.

1 Roast Chicken, 1 Tofu Stir Fry
1 "Ricotta Apple Pizza".

Plenty of leftovers! Then Dad and Sid (who I'm warming up to) went to Sinai for "Friday Night Live". I barely made it right before Mourner's Kaddish, because what my Dad REALLY wanted me to go to was the Singles thing right after.

I went. It wasn't a terrible as I thought it would be, but it sure wasn't good (party only). I did however, see lots of people I hadn't seen in a long time and people I never would have expected to talk to in my life. Specifically, Cindy Feit and Charlene Torkan, who I barely know. What a world. We all hung out and had a GREAT time. Charlene is just finishing up med school and pretty damn cool.

We all wanted to go out, but Charlene couldn't. I then met Cindy at this bar "Cat and Fiddle" ALL the way in Hollywood, at 10:30 at night. I figured I'd be impulsive and have fun. I had a great time hanging with Cindy and some of her friends, especially Jeremy.

The three of us then came back to my home, smoked, and just chilled. It was so lovely.

Night night!