Back in LA

Just wanted to post, felt like writing. Feeling better and better about my decision with Meghann. It's just not gonna work out as a friendship because I lack the basic tenets of respect for her.

/rant

So I'm at my Mommy's. It feels good to be home. She saw my wound...almost started crying. That I was walking around with what is not about a 3 x 2 opening in my hip...well, yeah. I've done a GREAT job taking care of it though. I really have! I'm proud of myself for stepping up to the plate. One day I'll learn not to constantly push myself to the ultimate limits (hello, hip flexor kicking my ass again), but live and learn. $10 says Aboolian yells at me tomorrow too. "You went to NY like THIS? If I had known....".

I'm sucking down a protein drink after Melissa's RANT, and I meant REAMING me out. I'm not eating enough, which is why I'm having problems. My Mom says I look emaciated. The scale says 145. Hmmm, I'll ask Alysha and the girls tomorrow. I still feel like I'm not skinny enough, but everyone says I'm getting pale. *sigh*

So this is my second protein drink of the day - I've also had a TON of Challah, 1/2 orange, 1 major protein drink (35 gms) 1 mini protein drink (17 gms), some hummus/pretzel crisps, froot loops, a chocolate chip cookie...and I think that's it. I could have sworn I ate some "real" food, but who knows. But that TOTALLY meets 1,200 calories, RIGHT? And now I'm eating an apple, dammit.

Tomorrow I'll stock up on Protein RTD's (no blenders, no protein powder shakes!) and I'll really start eating. Ugh, "emaciated"? I can't even count my ribs yet. No, I don't have an eating disorder....Well, I just sort of skirt around the DSM-IV because I'm smart enough to. Maybe I'm too smart for my own good? Let us consider.

Yeah. Definitely.

After I started showering (hey, if you had a massive wound, you've avoid water falling in it too), it got better, and I'm feeling better. Minus the hip flexor shit and the occasional "Hi, open wound, CHILL" shock, I'm doing MUCH better. So I'm hoping only 1-2 weeks of bed rest? I have a bad feeling I'm in for more though. Which sucks. I got the muscle tension after 3 days. I might have to start driving to the gym (if I'm not allowed to walk), and doing the arm bike just to sweat a bit. Just sent Mom an email to see if we can get me a handicap permit so I don't have to pay for the parking at the gym and can use the "arm bike" and get a sweat. I need SOMETHING, people. I'm going to go insane! (Not that....well, anyway).

In other news, I have none. Definitely almost time for Ambien and knockout time. AFTER I finish my apple. Oh, Eve.